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\Rant\, v. i. [imp. & p. p. Ranted; p. pr. & vb. n. Ranting.] [OD. ranten, randen, to dote, to be enraged.] To rave in violent, high-sounding, or extravagant language, without dignity of thought; to be noisy, boisterous, and bombastic in talk or declamation; as, a ranting preacher.

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Jul. 24th, 2005 @ 08:29 am (no subject)
i hate my son's father.
i wish he would perish.
if i could have my son, without ever knowing his father, i'd take that opportunity in a heartbeat.
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Jun. 19th, 2005 @ 07:01 pm Family sucks
Current Mood: crappycrappy
I hate it when my parents or friends suggest me to do something without asking me first. Like today, I hadn't gotten to sleep yet, I was up all night with insomnia. I was just about to go to bed cause I was getting tired (around noon). My brother calls me and asks me would I pick him up from the hotel he stayed at because our mother suggested that he ask me because I needed money and he would pay me.

So now I feel like the asshole saying no because I don't want to fall asleep at the wheel. It would have taken five minutes for her to say something to me first to avoid the situation but instead, she just goes and tells him to ask me cause I'm broke.

I wasn't willing to chance causing an accident for 10 bucks. I couldn't keep my eyes open, which is why I finally decided to go to sleep. But she's always doing this sort of shit. Like just now she told me my grandparents are expecting me up at the bar to play pool in a little while. Who told them I was going where I'm "expected"?

I have laundry and other crap I've procrastinated till today to do today.
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Jun. 18th, 2005 @ 01:25 am Time Travel
Current Mood: annoyedannoyed
Time Travel

Who needs science to find a way for us to hop in a souped up DeLorean and race at light speed towards the wire strewn across the street as the clock strikes twelve when we can reverse time all on our own?

After reading this article http://www.metrotimes.com/editorial/story.asp?id=7648 , it makes me think that somehow... society has managed to dupe science. I am talking about ages past when we lived in a segregated society where people weren't "the same". There were bathrooms for blacks/African-Americans, and bathrooms for whites.

Which on a sidenote, please refer to my ethnicity as French-English-Irish-German-Native-American if I have to refer to you as such. Because to be honest, how many "African-Americans" have even been to Africa or were actually born in Africa? I can trace my roots back to all of my listed nationalities, I even have family in England.

Do I actually expect you to use the list of what type of American I am? No. Why? Because that's what being "American" is. We're the melting pot, we're the epitome (or at least before 9/11) of a land of "refugees" who sought a better life then the countries they lived in provided. The only group exempt from that would be "Native Americans", since they weren't until we raped them of their land and their lives till they became refugees on their own soil. But that's another story for another time.

What's wrong with this picture? I feel like that children's program where they sing the song "One of these things is not like the other". After reading this article and you feel I'm incorrect in my understanding, by all means correct me. But, here's the deal I think. There is a new wannabe "Black Panther" group that is twisting or molding two different ideologies to suit their needs which includes, but to be fair is not solely based on, segregating races again.

So under this ideology we should all be sectioned off by skin color. Because in this country, if you're born here, it's not by culture or nationality, because you've grown up in American culture whether you like it or not. This is based on pigmentation of skin. By science definition pigmentation of skin is determined by the amount of pigment granules in the cells of the body tissues.

I'm just a regular joe without vast knowledge in this area of science, but I'm assuming that the actual size of the granules are pretty small. Something that we can't count the number of because it's that small should be the deciding factor of where we live, who our neighbors are, and who can run businesses in the area we live? Is there something I'm missing?

It's Just Business

In the mentioned article there was a very disturbing quote that I found.

"Jewish-owned businesses are everywhere in the black community, profiting from African-Americans, and they need to leave. In that regard, though, his views are not limited to Jews. The way he sees it, whites, Arabs, Chaldeans also all need to shutter the businesses they operate in black neighborhoods.

He assumes by doing this it will benefit the community. But lets take a closer look at what pulling out businesses in a community actually does to a community. I'll do this in simple terms because even I get lost in numbers.

Businesses create jobs which create money which is spent back in the cities that they're located in. Easy enough right? The local grocery store or convenience store that is located in your city provides jobs not just for the owners, but those who keep the shop open. As it's obvious that one person cannot run these types of businesses on their own.

And these employees in turn spend their money in the city they live in. If you're going to work at a corner liquor store, you're not doing it because it's your career choice. You do it because it's conveniently near you or because it's a form of income. So for all general intents and purposes, people who work these type of neighborhood stores are going to put the money back into the neighborhood. Great, let's shut them down then.

Currently Michigan has the highest unemployment rate in the U.S. at 7.5%. Though some sources have been noted as saying that it's dropping. Not because new jobs are forming mind you, but because people have given up looking for jobs therefore they're off the radar. So this would benefit a city to shut down stores that give jobs to people.

Ok so now some people might say... "What if it's only all Arab run?" Fair enough then, lets discuss the reason why the store is there in the first place. Grocery stores provide food, drug stores provide a place to fill prescriptions, convenience stores provide the convenience of being able to get products fast and at odd hours, etc etc.

They all have a "reason" for their business. So lets close down a grocery store if it's only run by Arabs so that people have to go farther to get their groceries. Lets not worry about the smaller statistics of those who benefit from a local grocery store nearby them if they're without transportation to get to a further one.

And lastly, businesses in Detroit (and Michigan generally) have to pay taxes. I am not an accountant or anything, but when I took a gander into things I noticed that not only do you have to pay a 'single business tax' to the state if your business generates over $250,000... but you also, when starting your business in Detroit, have to register for "city taxes". What this means is that the money the owner pays into these taxes again goes back into the community. So by all means, shut them down.

Maybe he hopes that if those that are not black that own businesses in "black neighborhoods" leave, it will give more opportunity for those who are black to do so. But is it really the non-blacks that own businesses that are stopping blacks from starting their own business?

Or is it money that stops them, that stops anyone from starting a business? Starting a business requires "start-up" capital, and I have to ask the question of what that has to do with someone of any other color but black who got their own start-up capital. This is starting to stink of a socialism view the more I delve into it.

With The Bad Comes The Good

This article also listed the unique tactics of the new founded group to help keep their communities from falling into the cracks of just another statistic generator. Creative ideas like marching in front of well-known drug houses in an attempt to drive out the drug dealers that occupy them. And the numbers show that it does work.

With neighbors that file out onto the nearby sidewalks to watch, attention brought on residences that don't want the spotlight on them, and police cars nearby to keep an eye on the activities... sounds like an interesting approach to stopping crime in neighborhoods.

They're firm believers in bringing back the "nosy neighbor" saying that while nosy neighbors can get annoying at least while having one, they are watching what is going on outside of your home, helping to keep criminals from doing things such as stealing because they have an audience.

They have become actively involved in getting people registered to vote. They even stand up for the rights of voters by doing things like protesting outside Detroit City Clerk Jackie Currie’s house "to draw attention to what they felt might be voter disenfranchisement in the 2004 elections."

Schools are visted to teach young kids how important a good education means. And schools are not the only places visited, they even visit homeless shelters to reach out to people.

They've also been known to march outside of grocery stores that sold spoiled food and helped close some 10 stores down that were found doing so.

But in doing all the "good" activities they do, is it worth their extremist ideas of a separated society where only one color controls the real estate in sectional pieces of the city/state/country? Does the good erase what some would see as reverse racisism?

United Segregation

I find such irony that ideas from people like the man in this article are shared by the same type of groups they love to hate. Another interesting read I found, http://www.kkk.bz/just_for_kids.htm , a KKK kids section. Here's a few quotes between each, the article and the website.

The Metro Times Article
"What he wants, ultimately, are separate societies, segregated on the basis of skin color. Whites here, blacks there, brown-skinned, red-skinned and yellow-skinned people there, there and there, each in control of their own pieces of real estate."

KKK Website For Kids
"Just because there are nice black people doesn't mean whites and blacks should mix together.

All the races in the world are different. That is OK because that is how God made them. He didn't make all the people the same. If God wanted all the people in the world to mix all up and become one brown race than He would have made them that way in the beginning. But God didn't make everyone the same. We are all different."

Two extremists from completely different sides are united in their want for seperation. So lets just take that one step further shall we? Why stop at color? Why not continue with this idea and separate the old from the young. Let's stop paying for previous generations' social security, lets keep our money to our own age groups.

How about we continue in this time machine and separate the north from the south again. It's blatantly obvious by the 2004 elections that the north firmly disagreed with the south in the choice for the president. The north wanted Kerry, the south wanted Bush. We could even bring back the good old days of the civil war and slaughter each other to prove which is right and which is wrong.

We could separate the gays from the heterosexuals that way we won't have people bickering over what is right and wrong in the eyes of their God anymore. Even better we could separate men from women. It's not like women haven't been oppressed by men in the past. In a male-free society women wouldn't have to worry about things such as being paid less for the same job a man holds. Right?

Why draw the lines at color? Let's just separate everything. That'll solve the world's problems.

The Metro Times
The Detroit City Website
KKK website for kids
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Jun. 18th, 2005 @ 01:24 am And I...
Current Mood: crankycranky
And I... realize that you shouldn't start a sentence with "and" but I like doing it and then feel guilty afterwards for bad grammar.

And I... get annoyed with people who complain that I'm longwinded and my posts are long. What are they in a rush for? Hurry up to sit there in front of the computer? Heaven forbid you might have to read the detail that explains the point.

And I... hate it when my friends post blogs that just states physical actions of what they did all day.

Example: "So I went to school today, and I have so much homework I don't know what to do with myself. But somehow I'll manage. Then I went to the store with my friends and I got a cool belt, it's shiney. And tomorrow I have to deal with my grandma who gets on my nerves cause she thinks I need to blah blah blah blah blah"

That's not keeping a diary. That's keeping a schedule of where you've been in your life. And (see there I go again) maybe I'm jaded in the fact that when I write posts in my blog I write about how I've felt in whatever situation I've been put in.

Even if I'm not -out- anywhere, just what's going on inside my head. I'd rather know what's up there then you telling me that at 8:05pm you were at the music store buying the new 50 Cent cd.

I'm sure people look at my posts and have issues with how or what I write. But (I like to do that too, start sentences with 'but' as well) at least I switch it up and it's not just ONE style of writing.

I find it funny that when I'm in my "Sorrow is an endless muse" mode, I get people coming out of the woodwork to comment on my posts.. but the moment I write a short story they completely ignore it.

And I... am sick of dealing with guys who think that because I talk to them I want them. I'm not a beat-around-the-bush type of person, if I want you, you'll flat out know. So stop fucking assuming just cause I talk to you, that I want you rocking my socks in bed. Really, get over yourself.

And I... get annoyed with people who purposely keep themselves in the dark about the world around them. Now, let me clarify. I don't expect that everyone should be reading the news constantly to find out everything that's going on.

But I expect people to have some idea of what's going on. The whole "it doesn't effect me" excuse is over-done. Or "I hate politics" excuse is really just another way of saying "I don't understand it". And I certainly don't expect everyone to understand politics unless they're a politician.

To put it bluntly, you're the type of person that doesn't vote or finds out what your government is doing till it's too late and then we have laws like the Patriot Act that take away the rights you think you deserve but because you don't like politics you don't even know they're gone from you now.

And I... on the other hand hate those types of people that get so caught up in the events of the world they forget how to just live. You're the other end of the extreme that can't find a balance between things. You complain so much that I'm sitting there wondering... are you ever happy? Can you find happiness in a milkshake that you had earlier in the day?

And I... hate when I see myself in other people. I mean the me that I don't like about me. Either the me that I no longer am, or the me I wish I wasn't. Because this is something I can find in people really easily, I'm so accustomed to it from myself.

And I... hate it when all someone can see in me is my looks. Don't get me wrong, I don't think I'm all that and a bag of chips and this is an annoyance based on that. This annoyance is when I'd rather someone see that I have a beautiful soul instead of a beautiful face. Because a beautiful soul is much more rare.

And I... really wish that I believed in myself because then I wouldn't be so critical about the feedback I get on my writing. I can't tell if people tell me I'm a good writer because they feel obligated to tell me that, or if they really -like- what I'm writing. And if it was written by someone else that wasn't your friend... would you say the same thing?

And I... want to make out again. I miss making out. There's no guilt in making out with someone. Haha, you don't wake up the next day saying "Oh god what was I thinking?"

And I... think people who go to great lengths to rip on bands or musicians because they think they sound too much like another band or musician need to realize that it all derives from something/someone in the past anyways.

"Omg The Killers sound like they totally are ripping off Duran Duran..." And of course Duran Duran had no influence on -their- music. Which means any and all arguments of this sort are null and void.

And I... want more friends in my state that want to be -friends- and not hopeful that I will be more than that. If I wanted a fan-club, I'd start one. Not that I think I have any criteria to have one, but alterior motives never turn anyone on or change their mind for that matter.

And I... am tired of people that want me to read something they're interested in, but if I ask them to return the favor they give every excuse in the book as to why they can't.

And I... need to go on a diet. I want to eat healthier since I've never eaten healthy in my life. And if one more person suggests that stupid Atkins diet I'm going to shoot them in the face with a big wad of carbs. I don't care if the diet works to remove weight, you sacrifice a high cholesterol level for the sake of being skinny. That is NOT healthy.

And I... think I'm done venting now.
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Jun. 18th, 2005 @ 01:21 am Interactive Advertisements
Current Mood: aggravatedaggravated

I'm really sick of all the "interactive" advertisements on the Internet. You know the ones I'm talking about:

"Throw Stuff At Your Co-Workers And Win An Ipod!"

"Kiss Johnny Depp And Win A Cellphone!"

"Shoot the Paparazzi And Win An X-Box!"

"Beat Up George W. Bush And Win A 100 Gift Certificate!"

It amazes me just how stupid these marketing and advertising teams think the general public is. While granted there are a lot of stupid people out there, I can't imagine the stupid factor is that high where they need to invent new and creative interactive advertisements like this.

You don't -win- anything. You're sent to a site that makes you sign up for a bunch of spam, turn all your friends emails into spam receiving inboxes, and sign up for some product/service that has nothing to do with the prize you "won" in order to supposedly "win" the item they proclaim you to win.

It's advertisements like this that are specifically designed to trick you into thinking you're winning something. Someone, somewhere, at some company is thinking of new and inventive ways to trick you into doing their work for them. How sad is that?

Someone, somewhere, at some company is thinking of creative ways to deceive you into thinking you're winning something. Hell even the ones that make you guess which celebrity it is (when they block out something of their face or body) and if you guess wrong, you still magically "win".

It really is fraud. Yet somehow they manage to legally be able to trick and deceive the public into thinking they're winning something that they don't win. You have to -work- to get it, that's a completely different w word.

And the prizes? I'm really surprised Apple and Microsoft allow their products to be the bait in scamming advertisements like this. Oh technically it's not a scam cause they don't take your money. But it's a bullshit lie to say you win. And Apple and Microsoft lose class points in letting their products be the pawn of it.

The worst ones are the advertising slots that shake (to get your attention) and say you just won a million dollars or the like and to "click here to claim your prize".

Granted, I know the Internet becomes more of a free-for-all each day, but its shit like this that makes me want to take a baseball bat to the advertising and marketing firms that are too lazy, uncreative, unskilled, and complete schmucks that they can't find ideas outside of deceiving people. Is that what they teach you retards in college?

And for you idiots that fuel these companies, go play in traffic. Don't ask your friends to sign up for spam, don't sign up for spam, you don't -win-. If you want to "win" something, you don't have to sign over your soul and everyone you know's soul to win it.

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Sep. 19th, 2004 @ 03:26 am News..
Current Mood: aggravatedaggravated
What is the right balance between never reading or watching them and thus being totally clueless about which world you live in, and reading them too much and ending up feeling anguished because it seems so much bad stuff is going on, and things keep getting worse, and so on..?
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Sep. 4th, 2004 @ 03:51 am BANANA BREAD SUCKITH!!!
Current Mood: annoyedannoyed
Current Music: the voices in my head
Ok I would just like to point out I am a good cook....I AM! I would like to rant about tablespoons and teaspoons....the abv.'s are extremely similliar thankyou very little! I didnt have my glasses that day...I think I had had a tad to drink...and besides, NICK LIKED IT. If someone could please change teaspoon to TEA and tablespoon to TABLE that would be fabulous...cause really....I am a good cook, I just cant read!!! er...see!!! ahem
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Sep. 3rd, 2004 @ 09:26 pm a statment
Current Mood: contentcontent
Current Music: foamy cartoons

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Sep. 3rd, 2004 @ 10:06 pm Friends Suck
Current Mood: pissed offpissed off
Current Music: The Used - Take It Away
Needed to rant about this, cause I can't stand it when friends are stupid. I take a friend to the Warped Tour with me as I do every year, cause she knows that I get free tickets and backstage passes every time I go. Kevin Lyman the producer of the tour is a close friend of mine.

So I take her and while we're there, she wanders off to go get us food. In the meantime my cousin Noel who I also get backstage manages to get inside wearing a leather and metal spiked collar. Finally security sees it and tries to confiscate it, but I talk security into giving it to me, and that I would just put it away. They agree, but I didn't have anything to put it in, so I just held it till my friend got back (she had a purse).

It takes her 2 hours practically to return with the food, in the meantime I have already gotten a headache from waiting so long. And while she was away I placed the collar underneath the stage where it wouldn't get stolen and that I didn't have to carry it around with me and get it confiscated from me for still carrying it. So I go grab it when I see her and place it in her purse.

I forget to get it back at the end of the night, and go home. A few days later I call her up to see how she's doing and I just get her voicemail. She doesn't even call me back for a month, until I call her cause my cousin Noel wants to wear his collar for some festival he's going to.

Mind you as a sidenote to this, she has my ex on her buddy list from when him and I used to date and apparently forgot who he was on her list. She messages him asking who he is. He tells her who he is, and after knowing everything I went through in that World War III break up, she continues to talk to him like old times and like they're old friends who lost contact. I know this cause, him and I still talk and he pasted the conversation to me.

Even he was like... if it had been one of my friends and their ex was on my list and I found out who I was, I wouldn't act like nothing happened. That's pretty fucked up. The next day was the day that I called her. So not only did she not call me for that month after I left her a message, but doesn't even think to call me and tell me that she's talked to my ex (even if by accident). Nice eh?

So ok. I call her today to get this collar back. I leave two voicemail messages for her because obviously if you leave ONE she doesn't call back. She returns my call and is immediately bitching at me for being impatient and then starts bitching at me for not calling her for a month. What, her fucking fingers are broke? Apparently both her arms must have been in slings to not even call me when she talks to my ex acting like they're all buddy buddy.

Then she tells me "I don't even know where it is". What the hell does that mean? You gave it away? You loaned it out? You lost it? What? It's not like it's a grain of sand. What if something is in your possession for a month it's then thrown out cause you can't call people back?

So I ask her to call me back if she finds it and to call my cousin and let him know what's up. I had exaggerated that I needed it back tonight and my cousin was on my ass about it, but the ONLY reason why I did that is cause I knew she'd just blow me off about it, like it obviously seems like she's doing now even after emphasizing importance.

She calls my cousin and starts bitching at him on his voicemail for waiting so long to get his collar back. Then bitches at him saying "And you left it under the stage anyways". Which is a nice assumption on her part, I think I told her why I had it, but even if I didn't. I certainly didn't tell her he put it there, cause I'M the one that put it there.

So she's bitching at him for things he didn't even do. Then she pulls the whole drama queen act of "And I'm going to go pick up my kid right now..." to make him feel like a jerk for bothering her while she's picking up her kid.

And I'm just wondering why I have friends like this. She doesn't know that I know she talked to my ex that day. That in itself is just lovely. Cause if I had talked to her ex accidentally and was acting all buddy buddy with him after all he put her through, she'd be all up in my koolaid of saying how bad of a friend I was for doing that. But she's sweet as pie to mine knowing how much pain I went through with what he did to me.

So I think once I get the collar and my stuff back I'm letting this one go. No matter how much history we have together, I'm tired of her constantly bitching at me that I never call her but she NEVER calls me. I don't find it cool whatsoever that she talks to my ex and doesn't tell me about it. I don't find it cool that she's scolding my cousin for things he didn't even do.

This is the same friend that will get mad at me for some drunken foolin' around I did with a guy she apparently liked (but never told me about it). Expect me to KNOW she liked him even though she never told me, not speak to me for months and write me hate letters for it but feels it's within her right to keep fucking my ex-boyfriends.

Ex-Boyfriends of hers that Jen has slept with: 0
Ex-Boyfriends of mine that she has slept with: 2 (One of which my first love)

When did I find out about it? After the fact.

And people wonder why I barely have friends in Michigan. Cause they're fucking cunts, the lot of them 99% of the time.
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Sep. 2nd, 2004 @ 07:52 pm things I HATE about bitchy room mates...
Current Mood: angryangry
Current Music: Bitch- Meridith Brooks
The Cruel Instruction of Pai Mai
2004-08-26 20:40 (link) Select
you know what sucks??

misunderstandings suck.

they suck even more when they lead to weeks of stand-offish silence. and even more when those weeks end in one person leaving. and even more when it's discussed, but you still can't hang out.
i miss you.
see...before things got all weird and retarded, i had someone to go on taco bell runs with. now i just send bert.
and before this bizzare-ness, someone else in this friggin' house watched witch hunter robin.
i got the set in the mail today. i just threw into high relief how shitty it is that you've been gone so long.
when you come to visit, we should go do the denny's thing.
or maybe i should just drive my ass to ionia, sometime between my two jobs and 19 credit hours. ::hugglez::

and i'm not the only one who misses you.

<~~side note...i cross-posted, because you wrote that you aren't using the xanga hay más.

Grrrr... it's bad enough she wants to screw my ex and effectivly brought about our end... now she pulls this you hurt me I want you to come home crap? can I say screw off? can she get that I think she's a snarky bitch? I want nothing to do with her and I might have been talked into getting back together with matt (although there's no chance in hell now) if it hadn't been for her.. god.. this is why I stopped dating chicks! they SUCK!`
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